I’m down 10 lbs, exactly.

I know.  RAH.

But, here’s how it happened:

Day 2:  -1.4
Day 3:  -4.2
Day 4:  -4.6
Day 5:  -0.0
Day 6:  +0.2

WHAT?!?  I GAINED 0.2 lbs?

This is where the mind games come in.  This is one of the reasons why it’s recommended not to keep track of weight loss too frequently.  I had expected a good water weight loss at the beginning and I got it.  I didn’t expect to keep up losses of 4 lbs a day…but I didn’t expect a screeching halt then a GAIN.

But, yesterday I freaked myself out about not losing anything.  I got uber-uptight about it.  I drank a whole lot of water in the late evening but also ate a bunch of puffcorn.  I don’t know  how that helped or hindered, but my focus was too much on numbers and not enough on trusting the process.  I will lose a great amount of weight by being on this 1500 calorie diet.  Last time, I lost 69 pounds about five years ago.  I know it works.

I just have to trust it.

Instead, I woke up in the middle of the night with a dog who thinks he’s injured but is really just a nut and I was flustered, stressed…so I went to the cupboards.  I came back with a bag of chocolate chips.  No, this isn’t the story where “Oh my gosh, I ate the whole thing.”  I can’t do that since the surgeries.  Before the surgeries, NO PROBLEM.  But, I did mindlessly munch on chocolate chips before falling back to sleep.  Without any idea of how many I ate and knowing I certainly didn’t need to eat them to survive the night, it was Emotional Eating at its finest.

So, there you have it.  A victorious first Weigh-In Wednesday, but not without its troubles.

Thank you for reading.